Insomnia and Danzig

This song always makes me think of my brother and everything that happened and how I just want forgiveness one more time. So I dedicate this song to my brother, Henry Winterbottom...
"Just Stop"
Just stop enough of the limitless critical comments on my life
Just drop the judgment and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life
Step back a moment, and look at the miracle starting in our life
Don't stop the moment, and let the incredible happen knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
To be the best in the world
Just stop with all of your little deliberate problems with my life
Enough of all the crippling, terrible pain we feel inside
Step back a moment, remember how the miracle started in our life
Take back the torment; I won't be enjoying this moment knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
I know that
All that we want is to feel inside
Some kind of comfort
And all that we've done
We can hide
We'll be the best in the world
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion
From the moment that we found ourselves drowning in
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion
From the moment that we found ourselves drowning in
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
I know that
All that we want is to feel inside
Some kind of comfort
And all that we've done
We can hide
We'll be the best in the world
We'll be the best in the world
Just stop enough of the limitless critical comments on my life
Just drop the judgment and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life


I got 0 sleep last night... I tried to sleep for about 2 hours without even dozing off... I took over 25 pills to help me sleep and NOTHING... I see my doctor on the 4th, but who knows what he can even give me for this problem... we've used up all our resources... i think it's time to take some elavil...
Matt has my house keys cos he went to apply at Lowe's. I don't know why he would want to work in front of the Hatfield meat packing place. Everytime I drive past there I cringe. And I really hate seeing the trucks with the pigs on them. I had a ham and cheese sandwich 2 days ago and I thought about it. I don't know if I'm going to be having ham again anytime soon, even though it's so good. I just feel bad for those pigs being shipped off to the slaughterhouse. It makes me really sad and want to cry inside.
Anyways, still listening to my 'Tallica station on Pandora... yeah it rocks... it even played Danzig's most popular song for me "Mother"... I hadn't heard that song in a long long time... I know it's going to be a better day today...
-Laura