The Time Traveler's Wife

I'm gonna use this space of the internet to not only talk about my life but to discuss the books I'm reading. I'm thinking of loaning Dan the Time Traveler's Wife as it would appeal to male and female audiences I think.

The book is wonderful. It's a love story about a man named Henry who time travels in and out of his wife's life. Her name is Clare Abshire. At times it's heartwrenching what they go through and other times it's so beautiful and romantic. The ending is sad, but the ultimate ending gives hope. I would recommend this book to everyone. It's got a lot of sex in it, as they are married, but they're also trying to have a child. But that's not the only entertaining part. At times it's LOL funny... other times it's OMG no! You would think it would be hard to understand and sometimes you start thinking about it, like how is this possible? But just keep reading and it is understandable. I want to read Audrey Niffeneger's *the author* next book called "Her Fearful Symmetry" but I'll wait till it's out in paperback next year.

As for the book I read after that called "the Pink Ghetto" it was an interesting story. No real sex. I'd read her again, but I really didn't like how she ended the book and I thought that the beginning of it didn't really fit with the ending. Like in it she gets a puppy from her ex boyfriend who is her roommate and theyre like playing house, then he does the ultimate betrayal to her and the end is like the ultimate backstab for him. It works out in some ways, but in that case, it seems like the ex boyfriend likes her, but then he doesn't? I don't know, it just seemed odd. What I'm reading now is called "Still Thinking of You" and I would be reading it right now if I weren't writing this blog and debating getting dressed.

Yes, I'm debating getting dressed. I don't really have anywhere to go today so I don't know if I should bother, although I did do my hair and a bit of makeup *pulled back with bangs on either side and makeup is tinted moisturizer, lipgloss/lipstick combined and eyeliner and mascara. I curled my lashes for the first time in a decade cos i felt like it, ha!* So I don't know if I'm going to get dressed but I probably will. I had 4 cups of coffee according to my coffee maker which were very good. Now i'm drinking crystal light lemonade. Tomorrow my cousin and her husband and daughter from originally Florida, but now California are coming to my parent's house. So I gotta get to bed a bit earlier tonight to make sure I'm up for that event. I'm getting the Ford Taurus that I hated driving. But maybe since I hated it I won't crash it. It seems cars I dislike have a better chance with me. But it's better than the POS I have rented to me right now. I pick up the Taurus on Friday before I go down the shore for the weekend. Which means Thursday night, stuck at the parent's, and possibly tomorrow for a while since I'm turning in the rental tomorrow.

I may still have to go to court because my asshole doctor won't fill out paperwork. My lawyer is going to try to talk to him, but my asshole doctor won't answer his calls. I know he won't. I'm curious as to what's going to happen the day I see him. I kinda want to cancel my appointment cos he's made me cry before. He doesn't like me. I thought he did cos he once spent a half hour talking to me about random stuff for no reason, but ever since my mom started on him about getting paperwork filled out he's stopped liking me. And it's not okay, because see, I'm on two benzos. One is for anxiety during the day, the other is for sleep. I don't know what other doctor is going to prescribe that, and the thing is IT WORKS! it took me 10 years to find what works that won't put weight on me. So if I go to a different doctor he may try something else. If it's Xanax 3 times a day, maybe then I'll have to live with that, but Ativan seems to really help, plus the 3 Klonopin that I'm supposed to take during the day but I take at night w/ Ativan. I have a lot of problems sleeping because of my anxiety, and I just pray for the day when my anxiety is gone. It can't come soon enough. Or the day I have a child, where the child keeps me up all night to the point where I collapse into natural sleep again. But that's not for a while. And that will only be like 4-5 hours at a time. And it may only be every couple of days. I didn't get the manic end of the bipolar stick, depression likes me best, but I got the anxiety end of the borderline personality stick and it really likes to fuck with me.

My friend Allen Schatz says to hang in and keep the faith, but sometimes it's so hard. I really don't wanna go to court again in February. So I'm hoping my therapist's testimony paperwork is enough to get me out of it. Or she's gonna have to go to court to testify and my mom was saying it costs like thousands of dollars for these other types of lawyers I would have to get. I'm owing my parent's huge chunks of change that I DO NOT HAVE. Where would I be without them?

Anyways, in a few days is Turkey Day and we're going to the Century/Sentry? House for dinner. We always go there. I think I'm done my Christmas list.
So I'm gonna post it here:
The movie “The Way We Were”
Any books by Marian Keyes and Donna Kauffman except for “Dear Prince Charming, the Cinderella Rules, Rachel’s Holiday, Watermelon and Angels”
Lori Foster’s “Jude’s Law” and “Murphy’s Law”
The book “Shutter Island”
The book “The Rules of Attraction”- Bret Easton Ellis
BH 90210 Season 8
Ghostbusters 1 and 2 on DVD
New middle size barrel Curling iron
Body Sprays
Supernatural Seasons 3 and 4
Mani/Pedi from Nail Expressions *right on 202 next to where the old Pudge’s used to be near the nerd shop Infinite Universes*

Anyways, I am gonna get dressed. Then I'm gonna read my book. Thanks for reading. And follow me on Twitter if you're not already. www.twitter.com/me0wmixalot and if you friend me on facebook tell me who you are... www.facebook.com/lwinterbottom cos i won't friend you if we don't have friends in common, you don't tell me who you are, or we have friends in common that I don't speak to.
Oh, soon to come a review of some other books I've read the past couple of months. Like the Cinderella Rules, Dear Prince Charming, Rachel's Holiday, the Lovely Bones and Just Listen.
-Laura

So Sorry...

So Sorry to those who actually read this, but I haven't felt like writing the past week. But I'll update really quick.

Went to court Monday. Didn't lose my license. There's a whole other issue involved with that but I'm not going to talk about it because I don't want to get in trouble for slander.

My teacher for this course accused me of plagiarism. This class is almost over, so I'm not dealing with it. I have enough to deal with as it is. I'll be cited by the university, and she can go back to having her students call her something so she seems like she is younger than she actually is which is OLD. I spoke w/ her on the phone and she sounded like a tired old cranky bitch. I have some options for her, but again, I don't want to get in trouble for slander.

Thanks for reading. I'm currently reading the Time Traveler's Wife and it's good so far. I'll post again sometime soon.
-Laura

you've gotta come back somehow...

So not everything has been going as planned for me with getting Doctor's notes and stuff. My primary care physician won't write a letter till she sees one from my psychiatrist so whatever. Fuck that. And my psychiatrist didn't show up for his meeting he was supposed to be at to get the information to write the letter for me. So fuck that too. My therapist wrote a letter, which I will hopefully get in the mail tomorrow. For extra help my mom has employed a lawyer who I will be going to see at 2pm today. Hopefully he can help me and my situation. Going to court again is just not my idea of fun. I hate it. And to think, I wanted to be a lawyer. HA!

I've been listening to Delerium Radio on Pandora nonstop the past few days. Since Friday night actually. It's just great. The perfect combination of trance. I missed this stuff.

Anyways, I haven't really been up for doing anything except reading and tweeting and watching my shows. Gonna do some homework in a few mins just to get started on it for the week. Matt's coming over tonight to hang out and watch SVU with me. I was up at 630 this morning. Made two cups of instant coffee. Now I'm drinking crystal light. Had some egg whites.

I need a pedicure... *sigh*... among other things... I woke up from weird dreams this morning. I was w/ some lady who I shared a hotel room with and she left out candy for ghosts, and my Dad and I were talking to some guy and I was trying to give him a pep talk and my Dad said if I don't lose my license that he's gonna buy me that car he looked at for me. I woke up and realized it was just a dream. I can't believe I'm in this mess. It really sucks. And it seems like no one really knows what to do to help me. My doctors aren't doing shit for me. I just hope my therapist and a lawyer is good enough. Great now I've started thinking about it and am beginning to feel shitty about things again. I'm gonna do some homework and talk to my friend on AIM and not think about it.
-me

License

So, someone told Harrisburg of my "medical condition" and the state wants to take away my license. So I have to go through a whole process of getting letters from my doctors stating that I am okay to drive. I'm going to get them from my psychiatrist, my family doctor, my therapist and my case manager. All saying I'm not on those medications anymore and that I am able to drive. I have to go to court for this. My mom thinks I don't understand the severity of this. Yes, I know I could have killed 3 people in the other car, which I'm sure are the ones who wanted my license taken away, which I don't blame them for. But if they knew the situation a bit better... I made a mistake... anyways, hopefully I can get a court date before the scheduled time for me to send in my license. Sucks to be me right about now.

That's all. Watched Garden State with Dan tonight cos he's never seen it. It's a good movie, so I didnt mind watching it again. Tomorrow I have to write my paper for Research Methods. Yay!
Thanks for reading.
-Laura
ps- here is a link to the car my parent's want to get me...

Dating Without Novacaine

Watching the Rhihanna story on ABC. I don't really have anything to say except that I've been there, and she's right "Eff love... cos it's so blind..." I totally agree with that statement. I was in an abusive relationship for 2 plus years and I didn't get out till he broke up with ME... I often wonder if he's abusing his gf, or wife if she and he are married. I wouldn't be surprised if he was.

Anyways, found out something really disturbing that happened to my friend on Monday, and it just holds true that my beliefs that the dating website plentyoffish.com is filled with psychos and weirdos and creeps. I wish my friend hadn't had to find out the hard way. Luckily, the only people I met from there that were nuts live far away from me. He's in the porn industry. What a great job for this guy who described himself as a self-made millionaire. He left his ex gf and son back in Oregon? to proceed with this "career"... one of the other guys I met on there remains my friend and worries that he may be seen as creepy. I think his profile is too safe and innocent for that to happen. Just beware any future users of POF... it's really an unsafe environment. I met one creepy guy off there who practically demanded to come back to my apartment to have sex. Thanks for the Starbucks though!

Moving on... so it's been over 2 weeks now and my face hasn't healed completely. I have some burn marks on my chin and going up to my nose and I still have some bumps and bruises on my chest (side note: Jesus christ could my parent's make it any hotter in the house? I'm dying). The burn marks on my nose are kinda annoying cos you can tell I'm missing skin on the tip of my nose so my pores are like HELLO! I've been covering it up with makeup and been pretty successful so far with it. Except for the fact of looking a bit orange today, but that's okay, I have that Day-Glo thing going on ;)

Anyways, you all know I love the Phillies. Well, they went to the World Series and lost to the Yankees. It would've been cool if they had won again, but the Yankees are a bought team. They bought their way to the World Series. Anyways, I made some friends on twitter on PhilliesNation and PhilliesPeeps this past season and of course my good friend Allen Schatz aka @raschatz *hopefully he'll still talk to me when he's the best selling author of his book Game 7* anyways, so I friended one of the head's of Phillies Nation and he wrote up an article of what happened at the World Series and I think he can sum it up better than I can so here's his article:
http://www.hardballtimes.com/main/content/article/why-the-philles-lost-the-world-series/ written by a very talented soon to be sportswriter if I got that right: Corey Seidman. He made the best point in the article that the shutdowns of Brad Lidge and Cole Hamels were key to the shutdown of the Phils during most of the games. My Dad also said this.

Avon Calling. I so want to be an Avon Lady while I'm in school. They're talking about it on the news right now. I've got like 6 more years, sure I'll be working in the field after I finish my Bachelor's *and of course I'll go back into working slowly for those of you who know my situation* but that PhD is a long way off. And now after this accident I'm kinda wondering if I should ever even buy a Porsche when I can afford one. My parent's are going out to look for a new car for me tomorrow morning.

Anyways, my Best Bud *Buddy- my favorite kitty in the whole world* is laying on my laptop bag next to me. He's such a doll. I love his little paws. Okay, I'm shutting up now. Oh, I got the piercing that they took out of my ear back in. Thank god. I just need someone to put the ball on it. Thanks for reading!
-Laura