Accident

Yesterday, around 730 pm I was almost home and I passed out in my car and drove into the other lane and slammed head first into an oncoming car. My airbags went off. I screamed and thought I was about to die.

Well, I didn't die, and I dont think anyone who was in the other car got hurt either, but we all were taken to the hospital. I was first in the trauma unit because I complained of chest pains which I still have. I believe I"m just bruised on my chest. My face is a bloody mess. Not English bloody, but really bloody. I've tried washing off the blood and picked some of it off, but it starts to puss and it really hurts and stuff. This coming from the girl who has her nipples pierced. They took out one of my piercings that I have had for 8 years that i really liked in my ear. I haven't ever seen anyone with that piercing before and I got a lot of compliments with that.

My car may be totaled and I just got it in January. A ford explorer which I really liked. Now I don't know what I'm gonna do. Hopefully I can get a rental car or something. I can't not drive. I live alone and I do like to leave my aptment occasionally. For real. I basically did this to myself. The first time I swerved on the road I should have driven back to my aptment and asked my mom to bring my book to me. Which reminds me, I need to do my homework. So I'll go find my book and see if I can do some of my homework. I emailed my teacher and told her the mess of a story. I hope she believes me.

I may just go back to sleep for a little while instead of doing homework. I'll find my book though cos I haven't seen it yet. Anyways, thanks for reading.
-Laura

there's a she wolf in the closet

Hi everyone... i'm still half asleep or soething but i did some chores around the apartment... i'm hoping to go back to sleep in a little bit... anyways i want a new processor for my computer and i'm wondering if the tech guys do that and how much it would cost and if it would destroy all my data.. i need to get my book from my parent's house to do my homework for today... anyways, bye... thanks for reading...
SOS
-Laura
Meet me halfway, right at the border

PHILS BACK TO WORLD SERIES!!!

I'm so happy right now... the Phils are headed back to the World Series... Theyll most likely be playing the Yankees who they beat 2 games to 1 back in May. The only reason they lost to the Yankees was b/c Brad Lidge fucked up, and he is back. He was in great form tonight. I'm watching channel 6 news, b/c Channel 10 is playing reruns of fallon. It's like WTF? WORLD FUCKING CHAMPIONS come first... reruns... seriously...
Anyways, the world series starts next Wednesday probably in the Bronx. I called this memorial day weekend. How I knew, I don't know? I'm just so excited.

Anyways, so I've been communicating a bit with Justin, but I'm gonna kinda just ignore him if he's online from now on. There's no point in talking to him really. OH yeah, now I remember why I broke up with him. He says I 'dumped' him, but it's more like he set himself up to be out of my life. I need to erase him from my life completely but something keeps bringing me back...

Tomorrow I have to run to my parent's house to get my new textbook for my latest class: Research Methods, which I'm really not looking forward to. I'm thinking of doing the final paper on Insomnia since I've been suffering from it so much lately. Today I got a new script for Elavil. I took 300 mg's of it tonight to knock me out. I'll set my alarm so I wake up and then start my day. Instead of laying in bed all day. Plus I wanna finish "The Lovely Bones". So I can start on a chick lit book called "Everyone worth knowing"... I'm starting to feel kinda tired right now, so I think I'm gonna wrap this up... Thanks for reading...
-Laura

Tattoos and memories

Okay, so the phils are one game away from clinching the NLCS... yay! But i'm scared of the yankees... theyre a scary team, but I know it will be a fight back and forth between the Phils and the Yanks...
Anyways, today I read more of the lovely bones... it's pretty good, but kinda depressing and a bit confusing w/ all the dialogue and thoughts of the dead girl... i wonder what will happen in the end cos not much is going on right now... and after this book i'm gonna need a heavy dose of chick lit... i want to read the cinderella rules by donna kauffman but i gotta buy it first... and i want to read shutter island before it's out in theatres... that movie should freak me out... it looks freaky... not paranormal activity freaky, but freaky...
Anyways, I talked to Justin tonight... it was odd... it feels like we dated a thousand years ago... he's really trying hard to stay sober... he has a new friend who is keeping him sober it seems... i just wonder when the ball will drop and what will happen to make him lose his sobriety...
Anyways, it's cold in my aptmnt... i have the window open cos i was hot earlier, and it's gonna get hot tomorrow... it's 46 degrees outside right now... ill probably just put on a sweatshirt or hoodie or something...
Hope I can sleep tonight without Elavil... if not, i'll just stay up... can't do my homework for thursday cos i don't have the book yet, but i can start on the research paper... shouldnt be hard to start... i dont know what i'm going to be researching yet... i guess ill have to figure that out before i do research...
Thanks for reading...
-Laura

Paranormal Activity/Phils

I'm watching the 3rd game of the NLCS and the Phils are ahead by 4 right now. =) That makes me happy. And Chooch just hit a double. The phillies are just awesome. I don't know what I'm gonna do once the season is over. I'm gonna miss them so much.

Anyways, last night I saw the movie Paranormal Activity. It was pretty creepy. Most of it was the couple in the house watching things happen with the camera, like doors closing by themselves and the chandelier shaking by itself and then in the attic there was a burnt picture of the girl in the movie at her old house that was burnt down and they didn't know how it got there. The end was crazy. The girl wanted to leave the house and go to a hotel, but then she is possessed by the demon and says that she wants to stay at the house now and gives this really creepy stare and smile into the camera. Then she gets up in the middle of the night and stands and stares at her boyfriend then walks down the hall then you hear her screaming really bad and all of a sudden her boyfriend is thrown against the camera and there is blood all over her shirt and he is lying there motionless and she then stares up at the camera and shuts it off and the end says that the guy's body was found but the girl was nowhere to be found. Most of it I laughed at the scary parts but when I got home I slept with the lights on. I don't know if I will tonight or not. I woke up this morning feeling kinda silly about it. Oh well. I probably will sleep with the lights on again tonight. Haha. I'm a wuss.

Anyways, I'm done my Statistics class. I handed in the final paper about a half hour ago. And i posted my final posts to the message board. Next is Research Methods, then Personality which gets split in half cos of my December break. I can't believe I'll have been doing this for a year already. It went by so fast. It's almost Thanksgiving. It's almost Halloween actually. I gotta start doing some shopping for Christmas presents.

Anyways, sorry if I spoiled the ending of PA for you. But wikipedia does too. I knew what was going to happen, I just can't get the creepy smiles from the chick out of my head. Creepy, but good for Halloween. I also saw House of 1000 Corpses last weekend. That movie was fucking awesome! I loved it. And at Nicole's we watched Wicked Little Things.

Oh and now the bases are loaded for Howard. C'mon big man you can do it! H got an RBI... anyways, i'm going to go back to watching the game now. Thanks for reading.
-Laura

LA Candy

LA Candy was one of the worst books I have ever read. It was rubbish. It was nothing but two girls who go and get famous because theyre on a reality show. Stupid. And the ending was really stupid too. I was getting worried as I got to the end of it because things weren't resolved, and they never do resolve. The one chick ends up tricked and goes to Mexico with some bitch in the book and that's how they end it. It just sucked. The whole 326 pages of it sucked. And it was a fast read. The print was so big. Over the weekend at my parent's I'll be reading the book I left there that is actually good and funny, and then on Monday I'll start The Time Traveler's Wife.
So the other night I wanted to get a glimpse into Lauren Conrad's world and put on the Hills. It sucked so much ass. It was a bunch of beautiful girls looking for hot guys, arguing over ugly ones and shopping and gossiping. It's like, okay, I'll tape myself for a week then watch it. Except for the beautiful girls part, except for my friends, but that's a whole other pity party for me that I don't want to get into. I don't deserve pity. I got myself into this overweight mess, I'll dig myself out. I've been craving some of the food I used to eat and feel guilty about eating. Tonight I pigged out on fish. Tilapia to be exact. That shit is expensive too. I'll have to grab some from my mom's surplus in the freezer in the basement.
As for my Mom. She's not doing so well. She went to the ER after her stress test today because of pain in her leg. She can't even walk. I told her to park in the handicapped parking spot even though she doesn't have a tag. I hope she didnt have to walk far, b/c she said she couldnt do that. If I couldn't walk and the officer tried to put a ticket on my car I would say, but I can't walk! I used to have trouble walking distances b/c of my weight, but now I'm a lot better with it. I don't mind parking far away from the door at the grocery store. My back just hurts when I go on a steady walk, and on my treadmill and stuff. So I have to take breaks and stuff, but that's okay. But back to my Mom. I'm really worried about her. I hope they gave her the good pain medication. She needs it, and not for me to take!
As for this weekend, I'll be working on my Stat paper during the day on Saturday and going to Avenue to buy some new clothes if I can find anything I like, plus these fabulous boots that I can't wait to get. I do need snow boots though too, which I should get at payless. I got a shoe rack for my closet so my shoes are all piled up nicely in there now on the rack and I have what I need of my winter clothes which isn't much. Maybe I'll find some cute stuff. Who knows? But I would like another pair of pants and another pair of yoga like sweatpants. And leggings. Maybe I'll go on their website first to look at what I am interested in.
So this blog was a bunch of random crap. Supernatural was good, it was funny, but they showed SOON instead of next week and a bunch of previews for what is coming up. I don't know how the hell they're going to fight the devil. And Vampire Diaries is getting better and better and Ian Somerhalder is so fucking hot. I'd let him bite my neck and suck my blood dry any day. Especially with the way he plays that character. YUM!
Anyways, that's all. The Phillies lost today. So theyre one and one with the Rockies and have to go to Colorado and play in freezing cold temperatures. Let's hope they win out there. I don't have much hope, but last night's game gave me hope. Or I should say yesterday's game, so I don't know what's going to happen. I hope they win. I'd like to see them in the World Series again against the Yanks cos we all know the Yankees are headed there. WFC! World Champions... World Fucking CHampions! Oh and Cole Hamels wife went into labor today. I wanna see pics of the baby if he is even born yet. I bet he's adorable as hell. He'll be super good looking with Cole's Hollywood looks and Heidi is just beautiful. Ah, I'm excited for them.
Alright, peace out.
-Laura

i see you lookin at me like i'm some kinda freak...

Ello... It's October 8th... I think it's been a week since I updated. But nothing much has changed except that the Phils won their first game of the NLDS. Yay! Whenever they get a run I go: "yay!"... i'm such a nerd...
Anyways, so I'm going to a Dark Disco Club show at the end of the month at club Risque... it'll be nice to see some strippers but also to see DDC live which I have yet to do. My old friend said it was okay I be there as long as I'm cool... whatever that means... I don't have a blabbermouth and I think that's what he's afraid of... but I heard he has these really tight pants and I'm interested in seeing this... I'm going w/ Nic... it'll be good to see her... it's been a few months... she's also getting over Jake which I'm proud of her for... He wasn't good for her... And she hit her 90 days sober! I'm so proud of her... it gets easier and easier... the first 90 days are key... I've been sober from pills and pot for 6 months... I didn't realize how bad I was using... you just get wrapped up in it... and this book I read called "Rachel's Holiday" kinda opened my eyes to how bad I was... I was popping 20 klonopin to get high *btw, i found a whole half bottle of klonopin in my makeup bag that I didnt know I had- so I'm using them to help me get to sleep tonight*... I had a bad thought tonight but I won't follow through with it... my mom is probably going to get pain pills and I was thinking of swiping a few of them, but I won't... I don't want to start up the habit again...
Anyways, so I've been reading A LOT... try to devote at least an hour to reading everyday... right now I'm almost done LA Candy by Lauren Conrad. It's okay for a first book. Kinda dry. Doesn't have the humor and stuff of other authors I have read. It's basically just a story with a few minor details in it. I saw someone on the beach reading it. Next I'm gonna read the Time Traveler's Wife.
I'm debating staying overnight at my parent's Friday and Saturday nights. I'm not sure if I want to or not. Matt is coming over on Saturday night to watch the game *if there is one- i'm crossing my fingers there isnt one, and that the Phils have won the series* or we'll watch a horror movie on Demand... he said my life is too public b/c of twitter... I've been trying to save money by not going to the movies... instead last weekend me and Dan rented "Fighting" which I still need to return and I can get a movie for $2 and I'll probably get Rachel Getting Married... cos I've been wanting to see that for a while now... months even... what's funny is all of True Blood is there now... I could rent the first two episodes if I wanted to... *I wanna do bad things with you... hehe*... love that song... love the show... the second season is over now... now I wana see this show on showtime called Dexter... I think it's in it's 3rd season... anyways, i may just stay at my parent's on Saturday night. But then I won't be able to wake up and start working on my paper right away, so probably Friday I'll go over there... I'm planning on writing this Stat paper next weekend... wish me luck...
Anyways, that's all for now really... I'm listening to some Pop right now on Pandora... i've never even heard this song before... oh well... gnite!
-Laura

Things and People that Annoy me

Okay, so somethings have been bothering me, well annoying me to my wits end lately.
Some people in my personal life have been annoying me, but they read this or may read this, so I don't want to bitch about them unless it really comes down to needing to vent.

Anyways onto #1:
Lady Gaga- she looks like a teenage popstar who doesn't know anything about fashion. She craves attention and it is given to her and she just looks ridiculous. Her outfits at the VMA's were absolutely stupid and ridiculous. Who wears a veil? Especially a red veil over their face? Lady Gaga. Where did she get these atrocious outfits that are loud and screaming in my face and annoying the living hell out of me. People craving fame and attention annoy me... which brings me to my next point...
The women who fucked David Letterman... who is gross enough to sleep with him? What kind of fame are you seeking to sleep with an old bag like him? And speaking of him, when is it his turn to pass the torch down to someone else in late night? Maybe he is funny SOMETIMES, but seriously, he didn't want to get married b/c he was having all sorts of affairs. He's a lying, cheating, scumbag. Worthless.
The Mayors of NJ: TAKE A JOKE! Conan O'Brien made a joke about Newark *the white trash city of hell* NJ and the mayor of Newark decided to ban him from flying into Newark. Oh no! Cry me a river! Conan retorted back with a bunch of jokes about the city and how dirty and shitty it is. *Good job Coco*... anyways, so the mayors of NJ all came together and decided that they were going to ban Conan from NJ the entire state. It's like, what are we children? "No you can't play with my blocks because you made fun of them before"... what's next bringing out legos and GI Joe's? So immature. I just can't wait for Conan to make fun of them some more, which will happen. And when he's gotten someone good, he's nasty. Which is awesome. Go Coco! And go LaBamba!
Sarah Palin: She is sooooo fucking stupid. Granted, I give her credit for dropping some weight and she looks fabulous, but she is soooo stupid. I'm tempted to read her memoirs, but I figure i'll be bored to death because it will be all about how she had sex a million times to give birth to her million children. I can see Russia from my house! Wow, you must feel special. A special SHUT THE FUCK UP to you Sarah Palin. I won't be voting for you in 2012, if you even make it there.

On a lighter note, it's October and time for October baseball. The phillies clinched their division title last night. So it's playoffs time baby. Goodnight.
-Laura