Sleep Test etc. etc.

I had the sleep test on Wednesday night and it turns out I do have sleep apnea. I could kinda tell last night when I woke up a bunch of times. Probably because I stopped breathing. I'm still taking Tylenol PM to get to sleep. Along with the Temazepam. Which doesn't really do anything on it's own.

I'm at my parent's house for the night b/c I need to do research for my rough draft of my paper *yes another one* that is due this week.

I got some letters from my lawyer saying my court date is now moved to April 12, so hopefully I won't have to go to court at all. I have the second part of my sleep test tomorrow night in Lansdale. It's kinda interesting. They put you in your own room and they video and audio record you sleeping. It felt like I barely slept cos I was out for like 6 hours and then they woke me up. But it was snowing when I got up. That was kinda fun to wake up to.

Anyways, I'm currently reading "The Dirty Girls Social Club" but it's taking me forever to read cos I haven't had time. I'm not even through the first chapter. Then I'm gonna read "Getting over It" by Anna Maxted whose books I have read a few of. Then "Valley of the Dolls". I found that gem at the paperback trader. I'm tempted to go to that store today, but I'm holding off on it. I also bought "Pride and Prejudice" and "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo". Don't know which order I'll get to those though. I also have 2 other Donna Kauffman books to read. I went on her author's page on Amazon and she looks just like I expected her to look. Which was cool. I like her, she's funny and her books are entertaining. I also have another Lori Foster book to read, and I saw a few of hers at the paperback trader. So I've got lots of reading to do, just gotta make the time. Supernatural and Vampire Diaries are back on on Thursdays. And 90210 and Melrose Place start again on March 9th. That seems forever away.

My birthday is coming up. Can't believe I'm gonna be 28. My brother was married by my age. But he's also divorced *thank god* now. I'm not gonna diss the Poli's, cos it's a waste of breath, but I am so happy to have my brother back.

I should do my quiz for the week for school. Maybe later. I'm not up for it right now.
Thanks for reading.
-Laura

I think I'm breaking down...

Okay, so I felt this needed an update... so here it is...

I am having one of my anxiety ridden days... I've gone like a week without any problems, but back to not sleeping properly and the anxiety is back. So this is going to be brief.

I have a sleep study scheduled for February 11. The doctor thinks I have sleep apnea. Whatever. If they can fix my sleeping problem that would be amazing. But I'm not holding my breath.

Thanks for reading.
-Laura

Cos I'm a free bitch baby!

Happy New Year! Sorry I didn't post at all in December... my mood really dipped low and so I wasn't up for anything really. Even the class I was excited about taking wasn't enjoyable. So I'm hoping my next two courses are. Physiological Psychology is the course that starts tomorrow. We have to keep a weekly journal as an assignment, so at least I don't have to write a paper in week 2! I like keeping a journal for classes on what I think of topics. Reminds me of my days as an English major.

Anyways, Christmas came and went and I got a bunch of good stuff. I don't know if I had my new car yet when I posted this last, was but it's a Ford Taurus. I miss my Explorer but nothing can be done. I don't really want to discuss the accident and the fact that I'm having trouble getting doctors to fill out paperwork but that's what has really been bugging me lately. I'm probably going to lose my license. I don't know how I'm going to get it back. So I'm kinda setting up a home gym in my living room. I'm waiting for my Dad to drop off the stationary bike. I have my treadmill and a bunch of DVD's too. And I need to get my heavier weights back from my neighbor who I lent them to. I may get my 10's here. Wish I had 15's so I could really isolate certain muscles... I would like a 30 lb bar for upright rows. Anyways, I'm getting off track.

I have a lot of appointments this week. One of my new year's resolutions is to try to keep all my appointments. It's gonna be hard cos I'm still having a lot of problems sleeping. But now I'm taking Tylenol PM and on Wednesday when I see the doctor I'm going to ask to try Restoril (temazapam). It says on askapatient.com that is really works, so I'm hoping that's my saving grace. Fuck the Ativan. It doesn't work anymore. But I see a new PCP today. He was my brother's doctor and helped him a lot when he found out he had Type 1 diabetes so I'm hoping he's good. My parent's also switched. So fuck you Linda Nadwodny. Yeah I said your name bitch.

Oh yeah, I dyed my hair burgundy red. I like it. At first I was in shock, and then I liked it, then I didn't, now I like it. It looks alright down to me, especially straight. And getting it straight isn't hard to do thanks to my flat iron and hair dryer. I have Lady Gaga's Paparazzi in my head. I always have this song or Bad Romance by her in my head. I think she's awesome.

Anyways, I hung out with Dan and Matt on New Year's Eve. Brad had a party to go to, so I didn't go to that cos I really wasn't up for partying. Serial sent me video of "Closer" done by Mr. Greengenes on NYE. It's kinda our "song"... lol... I wanna fuck you like an animal... he's actually the one who gave me the idea to try tylenol pm to get to sleep since he's the insomniac king.

Anyways, I've read a bunch of books since I last wrote, but I'm gonna just write about two of them. One I had saved for when my parent's were away in Florida and I read it at their house. It's my 2nd favorite book of 2009. "One Fifth Avenue" by Candace Bushnell *author of Sex and the City*... It was awesome and well done and it was what you expect from Bushnell. If only she put out books more quickly, but at least it's quality and not quantity when it comes to her.
The other book I read while I was at my parent's house was "Push" which is by Sapphire. There is a movie called "Precious" which is based on this book. It was different but interesting. Right now I have about 50 pages left of a Contemporary Romance novel I'm reading. I'm gonna finish it this morning and then read probably the book that goes with it. This one is called "Murphy's Law" and the other one is called "Jude's Law"... theyre both by Lori Foster. I'm gonna have to pick up her book "The Secret Life of Bryan"... she can write a good story. I got a bunch of books for Xmas to read and bought some on my own, so I'm pretty good on books probably till April =) Any suggestions I'm happy to take.

Anyways, till next time, thanks for reading!
-Laura
ps- Phillies pitchers and catchers start soon! About a little more than a month away. At least I have that to look forward to.