that ball is outta here!!!

Today I came back from the shore. It was a quick trip there just to get away for the night. I'm really looking forward to my 2 weeks there in August. I plan on seeing my friend who works for a band down there during this time. I'm glad I didn't lose touch with him even tho I supposedly wasn't supposed to talk to him. Oops. But he was there for me when my friend passed away in January unlike a certain LOSER I won't name, lol. Anyways, after my walk today I cleaned up my room and cleaned out my closet and took all the trash downstairs. Yesterday I walked 2 miles down the shore even tho it was pretty windy. I didn't mind. Just put on my iPod and went. I ran into someone I met when I was in the hospital. She was really nice and sweet and I hope she gets better. I emailed her on fb because she lives close by and I would like to get together with her. So, if you're reading this, you know who you are! =)) I think I got bitten by a few mosquitoes or something because my face and neck have been itchy. It looks like I have bites, but I'm not sure. I can't really tell except when I look in the mirror. So I'm listening to the game while I'm in my room and Cole Hamels had his first career homerun off the starting pitcher for the All Star Game on the National League this year. Matt Cain. He also has a perfect game this year, and Hamels gets his first homerun off him! I think Hamels is definitely capable of hitting more homeruns than just the one. I really hope we sign him and don't sell him. I don't think we should. As they said on the radio the other day, if the Phillies don't sign him, then it's like theyre saying they don't want to win. Ruben Amaro Jr. needs to get it right and sign him soon. I heard they offered him 6 years and 144million dollars. I hope he takes it. The Yankees would offer him more I know but I don't think being a Yankee is worth it. The other day I saw the Yankees minor league team the Trenton Thunder play the Reading Phillies. Of course the Phillies lost. It was a fun game and the food there was cheap. I'm going to the regular Phillies game tomorrow. I'm going with Brad, Matt and another girl. Should be a good time. I'm reading another book by Jennifer Weiner now. It's called Little Earthquakes. So far it's not that wonderful because it's all about marriage and babies and I don't really give a shit about that stuff right now. But I'll get thru it. I don't think I want to have kids because then they will probably end up with at least depression especially since Matt also has bipolar disorder. I don't want to put a child thru that. I also don't want to spend the money I'll be making from working on someone else. I mean, sure I will love them, and I do like to spoil people with gifts but I don't know. I just don't think it's in the cards for me. But if it happens, it happens. Anyways, I need to call Matt back cos he's coming over after he's done work tonight. I'm gonna read for a while after the game. Mr. Buddy is hanging out with me. He's so cute. I still haven't written the short story I want to put into words that is in my head but I will eventually. I heard that 50 Shades was written on a blackberry. I thought that was kinda cool. It's not exactly "good" writing. I've read much better, but people probably like it so much cos it's sex sex sex which got old fast and also it's really easy reading. It's also fantasy. I don't really understand the obsession with it but it's chick lit, so I guess girls really like it. If a guy was reading it, well I dunno what to think of that, lol. He's not a man. Haha. I don't know if I'll see the movie. I think Alexander Skarsgard should be Christian Grey and my friend said she thought that Anne Hathaway should be Anastasia Steele. I don't know about that because while she may be homely, I don't think she really would fit that role since she was Catwoman in the movie the Dark Knight Rises which I'm going to see sometime this week. Even if there was a mass shooting at the movie, I still want to see it and support Mr. Christian Bale. I'm gonna call Matt back now. Thanks for reading! -laura

especially when you're smothering me...

Burp! Excuse me, too much crystal light lemonade... anyways, what's going on in the world of those who actually read this? I was just informed Ted Kennedy has passed on after the other Kennedy died a few weeks ago who started the Special Olympics. Sad days for that family.

Anyways, I am home from the shore now. Couldn't sleep my first day back in my apartment and now I'm typing away at almost 2am. I am peeling big time, but applying lotion every hour on the hour... black Sunday... that's what's playing on my computer from my external hard drive...

Anyways, today I thought of something so cool... I want an asylum named after me... like, she was so crazy they named an asylum after her! LoL. Or because of the research I did or something like that. I just think it would be cool to have something named after me. the Winterbottom Asylum. Has a nice ring to it.

Anyways, one of my friends is really depressed and it's cos of this guy she broke up with. She blames herself, when I think he is the one being selfish. He just wants to be single again. That's it. End of story. He wants to be friends with her probably because he wants to be friends with benefits. She should cut him off. Completely. Especially talking to his coworker. That just interferes more. She shouldn't let him know any intimate details of her life. And she shouldn't give up. There are so many other guys out there that are better than Jake. I mean come on, he works a shitty job that he complains about and is obsessed w/ video games. Can you spell LOSER? And she says people are sick of hearing her complain about him, well of course they are. You shouldn't get so depressed over rejection. I learned that in Dialectical Behavior Therapy. You shouldn't get suicidal because someone doesn't want you in their life anymore. It's hard, but I've been through it numerous times after longer and much more intense relationships and I had to just cut the cord and say goodbye. Yeah, I miss Justin. But I have to move on. He was bringing me down, and Jake is bringing down my friend. Telling her she needs to get help for alcoholism when his problem with alcohol is 10x worse. He lives to go to the bar and drink. And I know he didn't like me, but you know what? I don't give a shit what a Loser thinks of me. Or his roommate. His roommate has herpes. YUM. Gimme some of that. Anyways, I love my friend to death and hate seeing her like this. But you gotta get over people. They never turn out the way you want them to. That's why I am being so cautious right now. I am not throwing my all into anything. I made a mistake a week after Justin and I broke up and I'm disgusted with myself for doing what I did, but it's over and done with, and I'll never see that guy again.

My blue dress... black dove, black dove, you're not a helicopter, you're not a cop out either honey black dove...

Sunburn sucks. Peeling sucks. Sweating and peeling sucks too. It looks gross... and i'm all about image, lol. Today at Curves on the Smart program I got all greens so I worked every muscle to it's maximum capacity. It was hard, but worth it... I wasn't sure I was gonna make it, but I did. Then I did sets of 100 biceps curls, hammer curls, triceps dips, and then 50 lateral raises, but next time I'm gonna do them till I fail. I really want to fatigue my muscles majorly. I need to get into the LaCrest gym. Andrew is telling me to take Yoga. So I'll give it another shot. =) Anyways, I'm done writing for now. Goodnight internet.
-Laura