So the Phillies lost the NLCS *National League Championship Series for those of you who don't know what I'm talking about*... they lost to the San Francisco Giants in the 6th game just like they lost to the Yankees in the 6th game last year in the World Series. Good thing about it is that the Yankees lost the ALCS *figure it out for yourself there homie* and they aren't in the world series either. But the Texas Rangers are going for the first time in franchise history. It will be cool to see Cliff Lee pitching againt Tim Lincecum the strikeout king. I'm not exactly looking forward to it, I just think it will be interesting. My heart lies with the Phillies. Hopefully next year they can do something. I at least hope they go to the post-season.
Anyways, I got a netbook to replace my laptop. To make a stupid story short, I fell and spilled red cherry sugar free koolaid all into it. I fell again. I really like my netbook it's so tiny and portable and I'm used to the keyboard now.
Nothing else new is going on. Frank and I are good, he's asleep in my bed right now... sleeping like a baby... wish I was, but I will... * only time will tell, if we're meant to be... you and i both know, if it's out destiny... forever endeavor...* i love that song so much... it's by taproot... one of my fav bands of all time...
There is something else I want to air out, but I told Darbs most of it already... it just bothers me that some people can act like a child when they're in their 30's... you have kids, you're married! Stay away! Seriously, or I'll fuck you up so bad your face won't ever look the same again and you're already incredibly nasty looking... ah, vent...
Shit I haven't written in my sleep journal for days. I think I'll do that now and wrap up this post... oh yeah I LIKE PANCAKES... the end...
thanks for reading!
-laura
ps- i got thru the anniversary of the accident with flying colors... except today at genuardi's with frankers there was a green 4 door ford explorer parked right next to my shitty car... i was like, dear god, thank you for reminding me i don't have that car anymore... really appreciate it...thumbs up to you...
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Saturday, October 23, 2010
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Lady Gaga
Lady Gaga's show was so fucking awesome. I'm still hearing her songs running thru my head today. So the show was last night. I went with my wonderful boyfriend Frank, and we got there a little early. But we got there for the pre-party block party. That was kinda boring... then we went inside *Okay, Frank just said there's something erotic about flaming boobs- yes she did have flaming boobs last night!* Anyways, so we went inside and there was some random dancing dude dancing to all sorts of music on the stage and he was bugging me out big time... so I tried to ignore him... whilst I ate my "dinner" which I couldnt eat really...
So anyways, the band "Semi Precious Weapons" came onstage, and yes, I respect them as a group and as artists with their own sound... but they BLEW... they were funny, well the lead singer was, but seriously, not my kinda music... Although I did like how the lead singer said he wanted to bring back Rock N Roll... which I thoroughly want too... but seriously, not the band for me...
Lady Gaga opened with Dance in the Dark which is Frank's fav song by her so that was awesome for him. She played an array of my fav songs by her and even made "Teeth" into a good song... it was extended too and has a special meaning to it, so now I get it... SHOW ME YOUR TEETH!!! SHOW ME YOUR PAWS!!! Anyways, she sang Telephone and Boys Boys Boys... she played the piano for Speechless and for another new song which I've seen on youtube... She closed the show with Paparazzi and Bad Romance... Overall, it was very energetic and there's stuff I won't share because I don't know who is going to see this and then go to the show and it be ruined, but seriously, like Frank said after the show, Lady Gaga's show is like a religious experience... =)) Awesomeness...
Anyways, the Phillies are 2 games ahead of the Braves now for the NL East. I'm seeing them on Saturday night most likely bringing my boyfriend along too. Yay!!! Even tho my anxiety has been bugging me and my sleep is all fucked up, it's still been a good week...
I got more information about the accident and stuff that I was in almost a year ago now. The other party is sueing my insurance company. Joy. Oh well. My lawyer warned me back in November to expect it. I'm just a little surprised they waited so long. Oh well. I swear theyre stalking me and know I have my license still or something. Whatever. You broke something cos you weren't wearing your seatbelt. I had a lot more complications from that accident than the other party did. I had a nice car, there's was a POS and they needed a new one anyways, so whatevs...
Anyways, thanks for reading!
-laura
So anyways, the band "Semi Precious Weapons" came onstage, and yes, I respect them as a group and as artists with their own sound... but they BLEW... they were funny, well the lead singer was, but seriously, not my kinda music... Although I did like how the lead singer said he wanted to bring back Rock N Roll... which I thoroughly want too... but seriously, not the band for me...
Lady Gaga opened with Dance in the Dark which is Frank's fav song by her so that was awesome for him. She played an array of my fav songs by her and even made "Teeth" into a good song... it was extended too and has a special meaning to it, so now I get it... SHOW ME YOUR TEETH!!! SHOW ME YOUR PAWS!!! Anyways, she sang Telephone and Boys Boys Boys... she played the piano for Speechless and for another new song which I've seen on youtube... She closed the show with Paparazzi and Bad Romance... Overall, it was very energetic and there's stuff I won't share because I don't know who is going to see this and then go to the show and it be ruined, but seriously, like Frank said after the show, Lady Gaga's show is like a religious experience... =)) Awesomeness...
Anyways, the Phillies are 2 games ahead of the Braves now for the NL East. I'm seeing them on Saturday night most likely bringing my boyfriend along too. Yay!!! Even tho my anxiety has been bugging me and my sleep is all fucked up, it's still been a good week...
I got more information about the accident and stuff that I was in almost a year ago now. The other party is sueing my insurance company. Joy. Oh well. My lawyer warned me back in November to expect it. I'm just a little surprised they waited so long. Oh well. I swear theyre stalking me and know I have my license still or something. Whatever. You broke something cos you weren't wearing your seatbelt. I had a lot more complications from that accident than the other party did. I had a nice car, there's was a POS and they needed a new one anyways, so whatevs...
Anyways, thanks for reading!
-laura
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Can't sleep...
Hey all... it's a lovely 630am on a Tuesday morning and I can't sleep anymore. I took 2 extra rozerem and they FAILED. Now I only have one of them left. Great. I don't know how i'm going to get to sleep the next few nights. I'm gonna call JC at 7am and see if I can get in earlier. I'm drinking water even though I usually try not to eat or drink anything before I get weighed.
Anyways, Jimmy Fallon popped into my dream last night. I don't remember what he was doing there but it was something amusing. I need to watch that show again soon. He was funny on the Marriage Ref last week. I tried getting through to my friend that those are the kinds of problems she should be having with her boyfriend, not cheating issues. But HEALTHY problems. But I don't think she wants to hear it. I feel bad for my friends who are so wrapped up in relationships that they can't get out of them. It's better to be alone than miserable, but I think some people just like the dramatic lifestyle. I couldn't handle it anymore, so I got out.
Listening to Delerium radio and kinda wondering what this song is...Seoan? Never heard of them or him, sounds kinda like Tricky or Massive Attack.
Anyways, that is all for now... thanks for reading...
-Laura
Anyways, Jimmy Fallon popped into my dream last night. I don't remember what he was doing there but it was something amusing. I need to watch that show again soon. He was funny on the Marriage Ref last week. I tried getting through to my friend that those are the kinds of problems she should be having with her boyfriend, not cheating issues. But HEALTHY problems. But I don't think she wants to hear it. I feel bad for my friends who are so wrapped up in relationships that they can't get out of them. It's better to be alone than miserable, but I think some people just like the dramatic lifestyle. I couldn't handle it anymore, so I got out.
Listening to Delerium radio and kinda wondering what this song is...Seoan? Never heard of them or him, sounds kinda like Tricky or Massive Attack.
Anyways, that is all for now... thanks for reading...
-Laura
Sunday, March 21, 2010
So Happy I Could Die and It's Alright
I haven't written in a while. Just haven't really felt like it. My moods have been low recently. They always get like this at the approach of spring. I don't know why. It's really warm out today, and I don't know. I was enjoying being in my car with the AC cranked. Not that I like the winter or anything, I think it sucks and I'm excited baseball season is just about upon us *marvelous in FL by the way* but I don't know. A lot of shit has got me down, especially the prospect of not being able to go to my --- okay my computer turned off right there... ridiculous, yes... and I don't know why... I swear if my computer crashes Dell is going to get an earful...
Anyways, the prospect of not being able to go to my brother's graduation because of my sleeping patterns. I can't sleep and when I do sleep it's for a long period of time to make up for my lack of sleep the other times.
Most of you who are important know what diet plan I'm on. I somehow managed to lose 14 lbs from early January to early March, and then added another 4 lbs last week. I'm following a program. I haven't thrown working out into it yet because I've just been so exhausted. What I don't understand is the people who exercise and shit and don't eat clean. Someone is bbq'ing outside right now, I can smell it, but I have to follow this for now. Even if I am hungry. Okay, now it just smells like the charcoals burning and it smells close by. At least it's not the smell of the Hatfield plant which is just disgusting.
I'm not going to talk about my "relationship" cos that's not what this blog is really for. "You can see my heart beating, you can see it through my chest, that I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, knowing that I must pass this test, so just pull the trigger..."-- Russian Roullette... Rihanna
Ah, I gotta do homework. I have a rough draft of a paper due tomorrow and I haven't started that yet. Plus the quiz and responding to people on the discussion board. My favorite topic was this week: Personality Disorders. Hopefully, my financial documents got to Ashford in time and I can take the Intro to Clinical Psychology course I want that starts during the last week of this course. I should write most of my paper now, even though I don't feel like it, because then I won't have to do so much when the classes overlap.
Anyways, I get weighed on Tuesday, so hopefully I dropped some more weight. I plan on throwing some intervals into the mix. Just a bit of cardio. When I used to binge on cardio I used to also binge on food. Even though I looked good, I still had issues with eating. I don't want to get back to that.
Let's go Phillies!
Thanks for reading.
-Laura
Anyways, the prospect of not being able to go to my brother's graduation because of my sleeping patterns. I can't sleep and when I do sleep it's for a long period of time to make up for my lack of sleep the other times.
Most of you who are important know what diet plan I'm on. I somehow managed to lose 14 lbs from early January to early March, and then added another 4 lbs last week. I'm following a program. I haven't thrown working out into it yet because I've just been so exhausted. What I don't understand is the people who exercise and shit and don't eat clean. Someone is bbq'ing outside right now, I can smell it, but I have to follow this for now. Even if I am hungry. Okay, now it just smells like the charcoals burning and it smells close by. At least it's not the smell of the Hatfield plant which is just disgusting.
I'm not going to talk about my "relationship" cos that's not what this blog is really for. "You can see my heart beating, you can see it through my chest, that I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, knowing that I must pass this test, so just pull the trigger..."-- Russian Roullette... Rihanna
Ah, I gotta do homework. I have a rough draft of a paper due tomorrow and I haven't started that yet. Plus the quiz and responding to people on the discussion board. My favorite topic was this week: Personality Disorders. Hopefully, my financial documents got to Ashford in time and I can take the Intro to Clinical Psychology course I want that starts during the last week of this course. I should write most of my paper now, even though I don't feel like it, because then I won't have to do so much when the classes overlap.
Anyways, I get weighed on Tuesday, so hopefully I dropped some more weight. I plan on throwing some intervals into the mix. Just a bit of cardio. When I used to binge on cardio I used to also binge on food. Even though I looked good, I still had issues with eating. I don't want to get back to that.
Let's go Phillies!
Thanks for reading.
-Laura
Thursday, September 17, 2009
I've either been watching too much TV or it's time for me to write a story that will be unfinished, unpublished and everything else that goes along with my stories. Maybe after I post this blog I'll write it. Won't take me long.
Anyways, I don't get it. I go to bed at like 3-330 AM and I sleep till like 2-3pm... I go to sleep at midnight, and I wake up at 5am and can't get back to sleep... what is wrong with my body? It does not want to sleep properly, even with all the sleeping pills. I popped another Ativan b/c even if I took Elavil now I wouldn't wake up till probably Vampire Diaries was on and I want to work out and I have to do homework tomorrow, er today. So blah. I was looking at people's pics on facebook and it's such a small world. I feel like everyone in my friends went to this wedding of a local family in Blue Bell or whatever and I am friends with them on facebook but never actually talked to them. Weird huh? Anyways, I'm gonna get more water and write this story. It has a Prologue to it and everything. Haha.
-Laura
Anyways, I don't get it. I go to bed at like 3-330 AM and I sleep till like 2-3pm... I go to sleep at midnight, and I wake up at 5am and can't get back to sleep... what is wrong with my body? It does not want to sleep properly, even with all the sleeping pills. I popped another Ativan b/c even if I took Elavil now I wouldn't wake up till probably Vampire Diaries was on and I want to work out and I have to do homework tomorrow, er today. So blah. I was looking at people's pics on facebook and it's such a small world. I feel like everyone in my friends went to this wedding of a local family in Blue Bell or whatever and I am friends with them on facebook but never actually talked to them. Weird huh? Anyways, I'm gonna get more water and write this story. It has a Prologue to it and everything. Haha.
-Laura
Friday, July 31, 2009
Insomnia and Danzig
This song always makes me think of my brother and everything that happened and how I just want forgiveness one more time. So I dedicate this song to my brother, Henry Winterbottom...
"Just Stop"
Just stop enough of the limitless critical comments on my life
Just drop the judgment and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life
Step back a moment, and look at the miracle starting in our life
Don't stop the moment, and let the incredible happen knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
To be the best in the world
Just stop with all of your little deliberate problems with my life
Enough of all the crippling, terrible pain we feel inside
Step back a moment, remember how the miracle started in our life
Take back the torment; I won't be enjoying this moment knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
I know that
All that we want is to feel inside
Some kind of comfort
And all that we've done
We can hide
We'll be the best in the world
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion
From the moment that we found ourselves drowning in
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion
From the moment that we found ourselves drowning in
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
I know that
All that we want is to feel inside
Some kind of comfort
And all that we've done
We can hide
We'll be the best in the world
We'll be the best in the world
Just stop enough of the limitless critical comments on my life
Just drop the judgment and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life
I got 0 sleep last night... I tried to sleep for about 2 hours without even dozing off... I took over 25 pills to help me sleep and NOTHING... I see my doctor on the 4th, but who knows what he can even give me for this problem... we've used up all our resources... i think it's time to take some elavil...
Matt has my house keys cos he went to apply at Lowe's. I don't know why he would want to work in front of the Hatfield meat packing place. Everytime I drive past there I cringe. And I really hate seeing the trucks with the pigs on them. I had a ham and cheese sandwich 2 days ago and I thought about it. I don't know if I'm going to be having ham again anytime soon, even though it's so good. I just feel bad for those pigs being shipped off to the slaughterhouse. It makes me really sad and want to cry inside.
Anyways, still listening to my 'Tallica station on Pandora... yeah it rocks... it even played Danzig's most popular song for me "Mother"... I hadn't heard that song in a long long time... I know it's going to be a better day today...
-Laura
"Just Stop"
Just stop enough of the limitless critical comments on my life
Just drop the judgment and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life
Step back a moment, and look at the miracle starting in our life
Don't stop the moment, and let the incredible happen knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
To be the best in the world
Just stop with all of your little deliberate problems with my life
Enough of all the crippling, terrible pain we feel inside
Step back a moment, remember how the miracle started in our life
Take back the torment; I won't be enjoying this moment knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
I know that
All that we want is to feel inside
Some kind of comfort
And all that we've done
We can hide
We'll be the best in the world
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion
From the moment that we found ourselves drowning in
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion
From the moment that we found ourselves drowning in
All that you want is to criticize
Something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
I know that
All that we want is to feel inside
Some kind of comfort
And all that we've done
We can hide
We'll be the best in the world
We'll be the best in the world
Just stop enough of the limitless critical comments on my life
Just drop the judgment and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life
I got 0 sleep last night... I tried to sleep for about 2 hours without even dozing off... I took over 25 pills to help me sleep and NOTHING... I see my doctor on the 4th, but who knows what he can even give me for this problem... we've used up all our resources... i think it's time to take some elavil...
Matt has my house keys cos he went to apply at Lowe's. I don't know why he would want to work in front of the Hatfield meat packing place. Everytime I drive past there I cringe. And I really hate seeing the trucks with the pigs on them. I had a ham and cheese sandwich 2 days ago and I thought about it. I don't know if I'm going to be having ham again anytime soon, even though it's so good. I just feel bad for those pigs being shipped off to the slaughterhouse. It makes me really sad and want to cry inside.
Anyways, still listening to my 'Tallica station on Pandora... yeah it rocks... it even played Danzig's most popular song for me "Mother"... I hadn't heard that song in a long long time... I know it's going to be a better day today...
-Laura
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