Opening Day/Week

I was so happy to see the Yankees lose to the Red Sox last night, and then the Phillies won today =) Yaaaaay! Roy Halladay looked awesome, but he also looked really nervous. But it's just Day 1 jitters. That's how I explain the two walks and one run he gave up. I think he wanted to be perfect but if you think that way you get into Cole Hamels mentality and fail. I'm nervous about Hamels pitching on Wednesday. He didn't seem completely ready during Spring Training, but you never know.

Anyways, so the weight loss is going well. I am on Jenny Craig now which is really easy to do and I'm working out almost daily. I can't wait to get back into cycling classes again. I'm just doing cardio for now, no lifting. I'll add lifting once I get to a certain point. This was my 4th week on it. So far since January I have lost 23 lbs. 9.2 lbs on JC. The other 14 I think I lost cos of my sleeping meds and because I'm not taking a certain one regularly. Last night I went to bed hungry, but I took a second Ambien and it got me to sleep. I was tired when I woke up but I wanted to see Obama throw out the first pitch at the game today. Phils did awesome. Did I mention that? Anyways, I'll be tweeting through Wednesday's game so you can follow me on twitter @me0wmixalot.

Easter has come and gone. Not very exciting. No chocolate for me. I can't believe it's already opening week although the off season felt like forever and that it was never gonna end.

This past week I was doubled up on courses. The first week of one course that I really wanted to take called "Survey of Mental Health" which is basically what my career is going to be. And finishing up week of "Abnormal Psychology" which I've taken so many times now. The people who posted their answers to the first week of SOMH don't seem to reading the same book as I am. I came across that in the posts I read and responded to. Oh well. My instructor said my posts were excellent so I'm not worried. I am a bit worried about my lack of sources for the final paper in Ab. Psych but I'm not too worried about it. If I lose 5 pts it's not a big deal.

Anyways, time for Law and Order even though I've seen this episode. Thanks for reading!
-Laura

So Happy I Could Die and It's Alright

I haven't written in a while. Just haven't really felt like it. My moods have been low recently. They always get like this at the approach of spring. I don't know why. It's really warm out today, and I don't know. I was enjoying being in my car with the AC cranked. Not that I like the winter or anything, I think it sucks and I'm excited baseball season is just about upon us *marvelous in FL by the way* but I don't know. A lot of shit has got me down, especially the prospect of not being able to go to my --- okay my computer turned off right there... ridiculous, yes... and I don't know why... I swear if my computer crashes Dell is going to get an earful...

Anyways, the prospect of not being able to go to my brother's graduation because of my sleeping patterns. I can't sleep and when I do sleep it's for a long period of time to make up for my lack of sleep the other times.

Most of you who are important know what diet plan I'm on. I somehow managed to lose 14 lbs from early January to early March, and then added another 4 lbs last week. I'm following a program. I haven't thrown working out into it yet because I've just been so exhausted. What I don't understand is the people who exercise and shit and don't eat clean. Someone is bbq'ing outside right now, I can smell it, but I have to follow this for now. Even if I am hungry. Okay, now it just smells like the charcoals burning and it smells close by. At least it's not the smell of the Hatfield plant which is just disgusting.

I'm not going to talk about my "relationship" cos that's not what this blog is really for. "You can see my heart beating, you can see it through my chest, that I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, knowing that I must pass this test, so just pull the trigger..."-- Russian Roullette... Rihanna

Ah, I gotta do homework. I have a rough draft of a paper due tomorrow and I haven't started that yet. Plus the quiz and responding to people on the discussion board. My favorite topic was this week: Personality Disorders. Hopefully, my financial documents got to Ashford in time and I can take the Intro to Clinical Psychology course I want that starts during the last week of this course. I should write most of my paper now, even though I don't feel like it, because then I won't have to do so much when the classes overlap.

Anyways, I get weighed on Tuesday, so hopefully I dropped some more weight. I plan on throwing some intervals into the mix. Just a bit of cardio. When I used to binge on cardio I used to also binge on food. Even though I looked good, I still had issues with eating. I don't want to get back to that.

Let's go Phillies!
Thanks for reading.
-Laura

PHILS BACK TO WORLD SERIES!!!

I'm so happy right now... the Phils are headed back to the World Series... Theyll most likely be playing the Yankees who they beat 2 games to 1 back in May. The only reason they lost to the Yankees was b/c Brad Lidge fucked up, and he is back. He was in great form tonight. I'm watching channel 6 news, b/c Channel 10 is playing reruns of fallon. It's like WTF? WORLD FUCKING CHAMPIONS come first... reruns... seriously...
Anyways, the world series starts next Wednesday probably in the Bronx. I called this memorial day weekend. How I knew, I don't know? I'm just so excited.

Anyways, so I've been communicating a bit with Justin, but I'm gonna kinda just ignore him if he's online from now on. There's no point in talking to him really. OH yeah, now I remember why I broke up with him. He says I 'dumped' him, but it's more like he set himself up to be out of my life. I need to erase him from my life completely but something keeps bringing me back...

Tomorrow I have to run to my parent's house to get my new textbook for my latest class: Research Methods, which I'm really not looking forward to. I'm thinking of doing the final paper on Insomnia since I've been suffering from it so much lately. Today I got a new script for Elavil. I took 300 mg's of it tonight to knock me out. I'll set my alarm so I wake up and then start my day. Instead of laying in bed all day. Plus I wanna finish "The Lovely Bones". So I can start on a chick lit book called "Everyone worth knowing"... I'm starting to feel kinda tired right now, so I think I'm gonna wrap this up... Thanks for reading...
-Laura

when love is lost all i hear are gunshots over me...

Now that I understand this right
Let me take it to the mind
This revolution
(has just begun)
Has just begun
Now that I understand this right
Let me take it to the mike
This revolution
(has just begun)
Has just begun
Now that youve got it right

So I'm down the shore for the week... I got sunburnt on Saturday but not that bad... it hurt a little bit but today I made it worse by not wearing sunblock... i thought i was safe cos i didnt go out onto the beach till like 230... but it hurts like hell... and is gonna exhaust me... maybe tomorrow ill put on like spf 80 or something, lol...
Anyways, those lyrics above are from Tricky's Evolution Revolution Love... thank you Joseph Rose for getting me to download this album so many months ago... Blowback... it's sooooo good... I just started listening to it more... I like it a lot...

I've been sleeping in pretty much everyday... I only have 3 more days on the beach so I'll still go down tomorrow... I've been going in the ocean everyday... theyre digging up part of the beach near me where they are trying to make it bigger...

Anyways, I got an A in my Social Psychology class so EAT THAT! April Bradley and Brant Himes... seriously, how can EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WORD be in your own words? Most teachers understand that, but not them. Although I'm kinda nervous about this assignment I turned in for my class I'm in now. I put no citations in. It was all from the internet. Maybe I should have put citations in. Probably. I'll probably lose points for that. Oh well. I have to start working on my paper. I just want to get some sources together.

So, I'm seriously in pain right now and it hurts to bend my arm, so I think I'm gonna wrap this up. Go Phils! I hope they win their division. I think they will.

Oh, last night we went to my favorite restaurant and the chicken parmesan I ordered tasted like shit... it honestly tasted like how cows smell. Not good. It was foul. I should have sent it back, but I've never done that before and I didn't want to do that in front of my cousins too. So, blah...
Hopefully tonight's dinner will be better, although I'll probably just get a salad and soup. I'll see though.
-Laura =^-^=

You're breaking all the rules...

Hey there... I have a headache from eating too much froyo... but i figured this could use an update...

Um... well, i've been sleeping a lot... i've been spending the night at my parent's the past few nights because they're in Florida visitng my brother and supposedly my brother is going to mend things with me... I hope so b/c I cried to my therapist about how worried I am about him and shit like that... it's not fair that he has to deal with the Poli family's nastiness and I knew all along that it would eventually happen, but I didn't realize so soon... I just hope he finishes his degree and I know he will and then he'll be a rich man...

I'm working on a paper that's taking me longer than usual. I hate that... I like writing papers at the last minute ya know? It's just a lot of work. And I'm trying to keep my GPA above 3.5 at least... it was about 3.7... I'm sure I could get it back up to that...

My next class is a computer class... there's a lot of writing involved, so hopefully I'll get that done and be okay with that... then I have Statistics... which as I've said before I'm not looking forward to at all...

I'm listening to random music on Pandora... it's called Playboy Mommy Radio cos I wanted to hear that song, but they didn't play it, they played a different Tori song... oh well... random music can be fun... Okay I'm done writing for now... I still have a headache... maybe it's the music... who knows... and i started my christmas shopping today... I bought a book for my aunt... I'll probably buy her coffee or decaf green tea too...
Gnite
-Laura =^-^=