when love is lost all i hear are gunshots over me...

Now that I understand this right
Let me take it to the mind
This revolution
(has just begun)
Has just begun
Now that I understand this right
Let me take it to the mike
This revolution
(has just begun)
Has just begun
Now that youve got it right

So I'm down the shore for the week... I got sunburnt on Saturday but not that bad... it hurt a little bit but today I made it worse by not wearing sunblock... i thought i was safe cos i didnt go out onto the beach till like 230... but it hurts like hell... and is gonna exhaust me... maybe tomorrow ill put on like spf 80 or something, lol...
Anyways, those lyrics above are from Tricky's Evolution Revolution Love... thank you Joseph Rose for getting me to download this album so many months ago... Blowback... it's sooooo good... I just started listening to it more... I like it a lot...

I've been sleeping in pretty much everyday... I only have 3 more days on the beach so I'll still go down tomorrow... I've been going in the ocean everyday... theyre digging up part of the beach near me where they are trying to make it bigger...

Anyways, I got an A in my Social Psychology class so EAT THAT! April Bradley and Brant Himes... seriously, how can EVERY SINGLE FUCKING WORD be in your own words? Most teachers understand that, but not them. Although I'm kinda nervous about this assignment I turned in for my class I'm in now. I put no citations in. It was all from the internet. Maybe I should have put citations in. Probably. I'll probably lose points for that. Oh well. I have to start working on my paper. I just want to get some sources together.

So, I'm seriously in pain right now and it hurts to bend my arm, so I think I'm gonna wrap this up. Go Phils! I hope they win their division. I think they will.

Oh, last night we went to my favorite restaurant and the chicken parmesan I ordered tasted like shit... it honestly tasted like how cows smell. Not good. It was foul. I should have sent it back, but I've never done that before and I didn't want to do that in front of my cousins too. So, blah...
Hopefully tonight's dinner will be better, although I'll probably just get a salad and soup. I'll see though.
-Laura =^-^=

Curves

So today, after my GI appointment I'm going to return to Curves. As well as work out on my own. But I'm going to be going to a different Curves. I'll be going to the one on 309. The hours for the Curves near me kinda suck, but oh well. It's only a half hour of strength training. And that's what I need right now. My diet seems to not really be working the way I want it to. I need to eat more veggies at night like I was doing before. And watch my intake of carbs. Still, I've made some progress so far.

Anyways, I have been having trouble sleeping. I had to take a second Ativan last night in order to get to sleep. I don't like this having trouble sleeping thing, so I'm thinking of bringing Elavil back into the picture. Just 10 mg's of it. Maybe 20mg's. I'll see what I have left... The Melatonin hasn't been helping. I thought it was at first, but it seems to go off and on with helping me. Some nights I can sleep with it, other nights I can't, so I don't know if I'm gonna continue taking it.

Cool, Pandora radio is playing Alice in Chains.

Anyways, cross your fingers for me. I'm not gonna reveal why, but I think something good may be starting for me. =)

Oh and they're looking into my grade. I'll probably end up with no change. Or kicked out of school or something. Even though I didn't plagiarize. At least I appealed the grade though. I gotta start to work on my paper for the class I'm in now. I'll probably start that tomorrow.

Anyways, time for me to get dressed and stuff for the doctor and then Curves.
-Laura
ps- oh yes! Pandora is playing my new favorite Metallica song: The Day That Never Comes.

Living Dead Girl

So, I looked at my grades online and for the rough draft of the final paper I got 0 points and was like wtf? So I emailed my teacher and my teaching assistant about it. But the TA said that he couldn't give me credit because it wasn't in my own words yet. I said that the paper wasn't yet in my own words when I submitted it. Yet, I got a Good job! Excellent! On like the whole thing except it wasn't in my own words. So I resubmitted a paper. I sent in my rough draft that is in my own words. I'm hoping to get some form of credit for this. I have A's in all of my courses, and I want an A in this course. Especially since everything else was perfect. I don't think I should have to get a grade below my level because of something I just didn't have time to do. I can't wait for next week and for my next course to start. Social Psychology.

Matt is here and I'm gonna make some smoothies. Strawberry Kiwi smoothies.

Phils lost, so I won the bet I made with Matt. I get $5. =) But that doesn't help with the fact that I'm pissed off about my teachers.

So many fucking people tell me that I'm such a good writer and that I should consider doing it for a living, yet when I submit things for school and stuff I get bad grades. Granted I've done great on my papers in my other courses at THIS school, at Widener I never did. I had such a hard time making my teachers happy. And people comment and say I was born to write and that things I write are powerful, yet my heart just isn't in it anymore. Unless I'm feeling really heated about something. And here I am writing this blog. "Getting back back on track, get off of my back bitch"...

Anyways, I'm going to a huge fireworks display on Saturday in Bensalem with Matt and a few other friends. Should be a good time. Tomorrow if I don't hang out with Bryan I'm going to finish my paper and tweek it and perfect it and the citations. And then be done with that class. I'll turn it in on Monday. I have to write a paper in the first week of this next course.

I'm listening to Pandora radio. I like it. I put in Godsmack and it's playing all different kinds of stuff I like. Currently it's on Living Dead Girl. What're you thinking about? After this is over I'll put the news on.
-Laura